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HELLO !! *welcome back limeeleen* :)

I know, I havent been blogging for waaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy tooooooooooo loooooooooooong! *burps* excuse me. hehe.. Been really busy with my first semester and getting use to the whole new teaching style in uni, chasing after bus, running to the bus stop, walking and getting lost in the uni, spending most of my time either in the library studying or my room studying. but all in all, i enjoy Perth :)

I just really miss my blog so much that i decided to be DETERMINE to blog at least once a week! YES ! AKU BOLEH :)

First semester was really tough for me as my timetable itself was crazily packed with classes everyday and ends at 6pm most of the time. Traveling 2 hours on the bus everyday to and fro the uni but somedays my aunt picks me up if i finish same time as her :) i am very lucky for that as well as all the things Auntie Annie, Uncle Steve and AUBREY the ICHIGO done for me in Perth. They always make me feel at home :)

I was struggling to get through my first year and trying to catch up with my studies after a full week of missing classes because i came back to Malaysia in April this year. Tests and assignments and datelines were chasing me.

Chemistry was the killer, in fact the subject itself was a murderer. Learning 13 chapters in 3 months, both organic chemistry and thermodynamics at the same time. The night right before my chemistry final exam, I had a nervous break down. i was so panic. I was in the room studying days without going out. So i cried and i cried. I did not want to study anymore as it feels so hard studying for so long yet you still feel your not ready. The exam style itself scares me as we have to get 40% for each section (there are 3 sections) in order to pass the paper. and if i failed this paper, i fail completely this whole Chemistry unit. and i have to comeback earlier from Malaysia to take my supplementary test. That was why i did not tell when i was going back when people asked me as i was already prepare to fail. why was i prepared to fail? i left 18 marks completely blank, never answered in one of the section and in that particular section i was suppose to get 20 marks to pass, which means i only have 12 marks for the lecturer to deduct. If i have more than 12 marks being taken away, i failed straight.

I was broken into pieces when my final exam ended. I did not say a word to my friend on the bus as we were going home. I was really upset. I keep counting, and there was no way i would have pass anymore. I lost faith. I lost hope. I lost my confidence. I was angry. who wouldnt rite? i mean common, i left 18 marks questions completely blank! not a single word i wrote. So i cried even more when i got back. Though i went out everyday for a week in Perth before i head back to Malaysia, still my friends could notice I was quiet.

Some part of me really wants to just pass the chem exam though it seem so impossible because i could not stand looking at my chemistry book at first. i just feel like tearing it apart when i see it on my table. Then i decided to be positive about it. I climb back up and say to myself, " YES EELEEN YOUR GOING TO FAIL! SO NOW, PACK YOUR HEAVY BOOKS BACK TO MALAYSIA AND STUDY AND PASS THE SUPP TEST :) " Then my aunt, she told me this when i keep crying to her, telling her im going to fail " So what? Ee leen SO WHAT IF YOU FAIL?" yea, so what if i fail? you only truly fail when you stop trying.

I was still a little upset when i was on my way back, i was not really excited about going back at first. But as i get home, with all my family and friends all around me keeping me so happy every single day just made me feel really happy and slowly i got myself back. So yeah, i managed to really study my chemistry in Starbucks and Coffee Bean! OF COURSE! there is like my second home!!!! im always there last year, studying! hehehe :) felt soooo awesome studying there. i really miss everything back in malaysia.

So i keep praying about it. just letting God decides for me. If i was meant to fail, i will accept it and do my supp test, and i will PASS. But, i truly Thank God for my results. I was so surprised and i dont have to comeback earlier to Perth :) God is gooooooooood ! :)

So here i am! :) Just started my first week of my SECOND semester, yes yes yes its my second semester already! sooo fast! chu chu *train sound* (i dont know why i am being so random :P ) Anyways, this semester i cramp all my classes into 3 days only! muahahha! but its like 9am-4pm for two days without breaks and one half day, 8am to 12pm. HAHAHA! its winter! i dont want to go to uni so many times :P

Alrighty! I will be updating about my AWESOME FIRST SEMESTER BREAK bit by bit! i really had the time of my life! Thanks every single one of you that made my holiday so special and meaningful ! LOVES! SO, here goes (i might not remember every thing, im getting old you see! hehe)

I reached on Father's Day! touched down in the midday. was picked up by my parents and Paik Hoon Ee Ee ! :) went for lunch at... i forgot where! oh wait, did we have lunch? HAHAHA! i cannot remember la! :P i warned you that I will forget!

Then went for dinner at holiday villa ! and theeennnn, i went to meet Jenna Oh Dell ! am i right? hahaha! i am really squeezing my brain to remember ni! We went Chilli pan mee to makan right right? hehe, i pandai! Then we go to Chatime at SS15 to meet up with the other guys from usj 12 school :)

my love my love my lovess :)

Was so happppyyyy to meet both of these darlings! nikki just finished her last paper and came straight from taylors! :) we went walking around and makan! :)

Then at night met up with the lovelies at non other than THE Old Town :) awww, i already am missing them so much!!! the whole bunch came! :)

this is horny hor :)

i like this coz of everyone's faces! everyoone is like in their own world! HAHAH! just look at nikki butt's face! HAHAHAHA!

this is anen the penene :)

this is Ason :)

This is Nikki Butt :)

This is the Brave Cynthia! My fav photo :)

This is siu di di ! :)

and we are the LOVELIES !!! :)

Went to watch Green Lantern with kel, ed, des, lex, khai cheng, ben, and shawn! at pyramid, yes pyramid again! :)

after movie, kita pergi makan di Melur Usj 17 :) hahahah! these two shorties wanna see who shorter! GOSH!

Thats about it for now! :) Stay tune for the other 23 more days of my semester break holidayssss :)

Smile :)