Monday, December 20, 2010 10:44 PM
Healing our wounds

When you try too hard to fix pain, it will only take longer time to heal.

This book " Letters to Sam" its the current book i'm reading. I took one hour of my time last night before i sleep to read half of it. and i'm very touched. Its a true story.

This is Daniel Gottlieb ( the author of the book and also the grandfather to Sam) and Sam in the picture.
Sam looks so adorable and charming with his sweet smile that just melt my heart. But there is always more than just that smile. Dan, the grandfather is quadriplegic. He had an incident that made him on the wheel chair. So this book is about all the 32 letters he wrote to his grandson when he was born hoping one day Sam will be able to know him, love, life and everything he has to offer to his grandson. At first he was afraid he could not finish all the letters but when Sam was only 14 months, he was diagnosed with Pervasive Developmental Disability, a form of autism and suddenly everything changed. Both the grandfather and grandson were bound by something more, a disability. This is so heartbreaking. Dan was afraid that due to this disability, Sam wont be able to read those letters. But he was more afraid that he could not finish all he had to offer. Being able to read this book will really open your heart and see things at a different level. Life is full of challenge and surprises, we just need to have a little faith.
There is one small part of this book up till what i read so far, that i really like. Is about Healing our wounds. Dan told Sam that there will be times where we will be very hurt especially when things dont go your way,we feel terrible emotional pain. Dan said this, " I hope you wont blame yourself or anyone else for the pain. I also hope you will not listen to people who try to talk you out of your pain or show you ways to fix it." Because if you try too hard to fix pain, it will only takes longer time to heal!
I learn that, pain is about longing for yesterday. What we did in our past, what we regret doing, the bad experiences we had and who we were. Pain will always be there, deep deep deep down inside us. But people always blame themselves for not being strong enough, not good enough when pain doesnt go away fast enough. We cant fix a timetable for when pain should go away. "Healing takes place in its own way and in its own time."
Let our wounds heal on its own. Everyone has to deal with pain in their lives, is how we deal with it, how we overcome it. We can overcome it with a strong will and faith or we can choose to be in depression and anger and frustration in dealing with pain. Why would you want to choose the harder way? This is what normally people will say to you. But i say, IF i get to choose, but what if i cant choose? Sometimes, things are easier to be said than to be done. Is easier to advise then to follow them. I know, sometimes when we are in pain, we are focussing so much on how to get out of it rather than to how to deal with the pain. When we are emotional, we let emotions rule our brain. Thus, we tend not to think properly and choose the correct way of doing things. its normal, dont blame yourself. Realise it and try to do things in a different way next time, have a little faith! :)
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